It is New Year time and everyone is doing something. Either they are making New Year resolutions or listing their mistakes from the past. It is however a pity that not many people actually learn from their mistakes. I am an ordinary person and it was absolutely natural that I would fall into one of these categories. Being an expressionist (Don’t get me wrong, it is not about paintings, it is about literally expressing feelings), it was my obligation to blog about it. So here it is.
2009 year was the year of change. There were many things that I thought I would not do, but I did them. And some of them I regret about, some of them I feel proud about. But that is not the topic of discussion. Neither is it a confession session. It is a memento to my blog, or rather a New Year gift to my blog. As far as I remember, this year has not been well for me academically. In both the semesters this year, I got an SGPA of 6.27 and 6.08 respectively, compared to 7.66 in the first semester. But don’t worry, I still strive for a perfect ten (the sarcasm will be evident to only a handful). I used a lot of my time this year making algorithms and doing coding and debugging. It may look that I did not make the assignments at all given my grades in the CSL courses did this year, but surely, my effort was no less than others, only the direction was incorrect. I have hated computer science since class 5th when my school teacher taught us LOGO. And I decided then and there about that I would not continue my career in computers. This sad story will need a separate blog entry.
2009 also is also the marking of my expressionist movement as I started writing my blog. This is not an achievement in itself; it is just a mode of mass communication and opinion sharing. But I am glad I chose it and now it has become an integral part of me. 2009 was also the year of frustration. A lot of tensions settled on my brain, a lot of them indeed. The tension of future, the tension of poor grades, the tension of internship, the tension of anything to everything and a lot of other things. But hey, this all horrible stuff that happened to me in this year was not the solitary face. There is the other side of the coin as well.
2009 has also brought me a number of things to feel good about. First of all, I was extremely happy to be associated with BSP; this is exactly where I belong. Writing and reading is an integral part of me for long years and it is just the kind of place of thing or whatever you say that when happened to me, it made me feel home, as if I am back to where I belong. My creativity in words returned (I don’t know your opinion, but I certainly think my writings are creative). And I am very happy that something like BSP exists in my life.
I finally figured out my real interest and my future plans. I realized my interest in abstract mathematics and hardware design. I realized my interest in fiction writing and plot making. I realized my needs and the needs of the people around me. I realized the delicacies of human mind and its shortcomings and weaknesses through close observation. And I realized how easy it is to become prey to the things you don’t want to become prey to.
And now back to bad things. I didn’t get a single room even in my second year. And yes, I took a little bit of ragging (you can’t really call that ragging, but it was fun). I saw people around me making mistakes, then regretting and even though I made many efforts to savior the situation when it was needed, I would always regret at not being a bit harder and stricter with the people I care about.
That’s it. 2009 is going away, not far but deeper, like a stack. Just got to pop things to get to it, but then you get chaos as all the popped object lie scattered. So, you got to look into past only when indispensable.
Welcome 2010.
2009 year was the year of change. There were many things that I thought I would not do, but I did them. And some of them I regret about, some of them I feel proud about. But that is not the topic of discussion. Neither is it a confession session. It is a memento to my blog, or rather a New Year gift to my blog. As far as I remember, this year has not been well for me academically. In both the semesters this year, I got an SGPA of 6.27 and 6.08 respectively, compared to 7.66 in the first semester. But don’t worry, I still strive for a perfect ten (the sarcasm will be evident to only a handful). I used a lot of my time this year making algorithms and doing coding and debugging. It may look that I did not make the assignments at all given my grades in the CSL courses did this year, but surely, my effort was no less than others, only the direction was incorrect. I have hated computer science since class 5th when my school teacher taught us LOGO. And I decided then and there about that I would not continue my career in computers. This sad story will need a separate blog entry.
2009 also is also the marking of my expressionist movement as I started writing my blog. This is not an achievement in itself; it is just a mode of mass communication and opinion sharing. But I am glad I chose it and now it has become an integral part of me. 2009 was also the year of frustration. A lot of tensions settled on my brain, a lot of them indeed. The tension of future, the tension of poor grades, the tension of internship, the tension of anything to everything and a lot of other things. But hey, this all horrible stuff that happened to me in this year was not the solitary face. There is the other side of the coin as well.
2009 has also brought me a number of things to feel good about. First of all, I was extremely happy to be associated with BSP; this is exactly where I belong. Writing and reading is an integral part of me for long years and it is just the kind of place of thing or whatever you say that when happened to me, it made me feel home, as if I am back to where I belong. My creativity in words returned (I don’t know your opinion, but I certainly think my writings are creative). And I am very happy that something like BSP exists in my life.
I finally figured out my real interest and my future plans. I realized my interest in abstract mathematics and hardware design. I realized my interest in fiction writing and plot making. I realized my needs and the needs of the people around me. I realized the delicacies of human mind and its shortcomings and weaknesses through close observation. And I realized how easy it is to become prey to the things you don’t want to become prey to.
And now back to bad things. I didn’t get a single room even in my second year. And yes, I took a little bit of ragging (you can’t really call that ragging, but it was fun). I saw people around me making mistakes, then regretting and even though I made many efforts to savior the situation when it was needed, I would always regret at not being a bit harder and stricter with the people I care about.
That’s it. 2009 is going away, not far but deeper, like a stack. Just got to pop things to get to it, but then you get chaos as all the popped object lie scattered. So, you got to look into past only when indispensable.
Welcome 2010.
Very meticulous insight! Its good to see your thoughts take the form of well tuned words. Have a great year ahead. God Bless You!
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